For the first time...

I really meant to write this post sooner but here it is...


Jeremiah is 14 months now and for the first time I left him go somewhere without me.  It was very difficult and emotional for me at first but I desperately needed a few days to just clear my head.  I'm so thankful for his daddy because he really is great to Jeremiah and I and most of the time is willing to do what needs to be done for the better of our little family unit.

I think the hardest part was late at night at times when he is typically sleeping because I kept looking back at the crib whenever I bumped something or made too much noise to make sure I didn't wake him only to see he wasn't there.

Anyway.. the whole reason for my little mommication as we've come to call it is that I will be going back to school starting October 25th and I needed to practice for my placement tests.  I'm really proud of how well I did, my advisor told me today that my scores were the highest and most consistent across the board for all 3 sections which were Reading, Writing, and Math.

To say that I'm thankful for this opportunity would really be an understatement, I'm very blessed that God provided me this chance to return to school for something I'm passionate about and I'm really looking forward to the work it will take to earn an Associates degree in Web Graphic Design and continue after that to earn a Bachelors in Multimedia Design & Development.

Give and Take

This is what life is all about right? Some days I feel so blessed to have a great boyfriend and a beautiful little boy to share my life with... some days I look outside and see the beauty and I'm so thankful and so blessed to have this life.  None of us deserve what we have at all but God is so merciful and gives abundantly and He never takes his blessing from us.

I'm at a really tough place at this moment I'm so furious about a situation that happened so I thought I should just come to the blog and bang it out instead of mulling over it and continuing in this feeling of anger.


On a happy note though, if everything works out with today we'll be going to see Fireworks tonight with my cousins Christa and her family, I'm very excited for that considering we didn't get to see fireworks for the 4th of July and I think Jeremiah may really like them... at any rate he'll get to play with his cousin Stella who is just 3 weeks older than him.

I should plug my camera in so I can take photos tonight... I'm gonna do that.  Thanks for listening, the headache has subsided and I'm feeling a bit better now.

Enjoying Family

I've never been really close to my extended family and this past year I've spent more time with them than I think I have in my whole life to be honest.  I've grown a very nice friendship with my cousins Christa and Alexis who were old enough to have babysat me when we were young but now I'm very thankful to have them in my life.  The 3 of has all gave birth within about a month and a half so our babies are all the same age as well and it's really fun to watch them play the few times we've gotten to get together all at once.

My Gram and Aunt are two more people I've been growing a nice bond with, I really enjoy "unplugging" and going to spend time with them a few times each week.  There is no internet at their house and their cable box isn't working either so there is no television.  My cell gets alright coverage and even on 3g but while I'm there I usually just don't feel like I need to be doing any of these things.  They really love Jeremiah and I can tell that he enjoys going to their house as well.  I'm looking forward to them moving because they will be just down the street then and we can walk to visit.

Anyway, I didn't have any real point to write about this evening I just had a very enjoyable day at my Grams house and it made me think about how grateful I am to be gaining relationships with family members that I didn't really talk much to before and I felt like sharing.

Purpose...

Purpose is a word that I've always been fond of.. I'll explain.  When I was in college the book Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren came huge and spread across college and church youth groups the same.  I was glad to be part of campus ministry with the Gospel Choir at Bloomsburg University where I attended college, it was through that group I was able to go through the book with a group of other Christian girls.  It was a rewarding and challenging time in my life and I wish I'd gotten through the whole book... maybe some day I'll be disciplined enough to go through it all.

Anyway, purpose... I saw many of my friends and people I once was close to lately have started blogging.  I used to blog awhile ago sometime around high school.  I enjoyed it, I blogged using http://www.xanga.com and was able to join groups and things related to what I enjoyed, it was more a blogger networking site.  When I saw so many people I knew were blogging I thought it'd be a nice time to get back into it so here we are...

Half way there

I chose this as the title because well it reminds me of life.  We're always half way to wherever we are going next, I've learned this especially since becoming a mom.  We're always only half way there, it's a weird sort of feeling but it's been my life for the past year since I gave birth to my little miracle that I call Jeremiah.  Before I close this post I'd like to share the lyrics of the song Half Way There.

When the chips are down, back against the wall
Got no more to give because we gave it all


Seems like going a distance is unrealistic
But we're too far from the start

So we take what comes and we keep on goin,
leanin on each others shoulders.
Then we turn around and see we've come so far somehow.

Were halfway there, were lookin good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
Were halfway there, and lookin back now
Id never thought that id ever say, we're halfway there

If we never flew, we would never fall.
If the world was ours, we would have it all.
But the life we live isn't so simplistic, you just don't get what you want.

So we take what comes and we keep on goin',
leanin on each others shoulders.
Then we turn around and see we've come so far somehow.

We're halfway there, were lookin' good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
Were halfway there and lookin back now.
I'd never thought that I'd ever say
We're halfway there
We're halfway there.

How you ever gunna reach the stars
If you never get off the ground
and your always here were you are,
If you let life knock you down.

Were halfway there, were lookin good now.
Nothin's gunna get in the way.
Were halfway there, and lookin back now
Id never thought that id ever say.
Were halfway there
Were halfway there.